The Narrow Way

Trust.

It sounds simple, until you’ve had to rebuild it from the ground up.

Because when people you loved broke your heart…
When the ones who should’ve protected you didn’t…
When words were used like weapons, and silence felt like betrayal…
You start to wonder if anyone is really safe.

And for a long time, I didn’t know if I could trust again.
Not people.
Not even God.

Yes, I loved Him.
Yes, I believed in Him.
But I was still looking at Him through the lens of what others had done.
I thought He’d walk away when I needed Him most.
I thought maybe He was disappointed in how slow I was healing.
Maybe He was tired of waiting for me to be “better.”

But that’s not who Jesus is.

He doesn’t flinch when I doubt.
He doesn’t walk out when I hesitate.
He doesn’t rush the process, He walks with me through it.

I’m learning that Jesus doesn’t demand blind trust… He builds it, gently, over time.

Every time I fall apart and He stays…
Every time I question and He comforts…
Every time I take a risk and He catches me…
That’s where trust is formed.

He’s not like them.
He’s not inconsistent.
He’s not conditional.
He doesn’t say one thing and do another.
He doesn’t love me more when I perform, or less when I struggle.

He’s steady.
He’s true.
And He is safe.

I’m learning to trust His voice over the noise of my past.
To trust His heart when I don’t understand His timing.
To trust His character when the world feels unkind.

Trust isn’t coming easily.

But it’s coming.

It’s coming in moments when I risk vulnerability again.

In friendships where I speak my truth and don’t apologize.

In prayers where I admit, “God, I’m scared,” and still show up.

I’m learning that trust isn’t about pretending I’m not afraid.
It’s about choosing to believe, one small step at a time, that Jesus will meet me in the fear.

And He always does.

So no, I don’t have it all figured out.
But I’m no longer letting what others did to me define how I relate to God or people.
I’m learning to trust again, slowly, prayerfully, honestly.
Because Jesus is proving, over and over again, that He’s worthy of it.

He’s healing not just my heart, but my ability to trust.

And I’m beginning to believe that trust isn’t a risk when it’s placed in the One who never changes.